It's running silent and angry and deep

When service turns into suffering

Combat PTSD Wounded Times
Kathie Costos
January 26, 2019

Why do people decide that they are willing to take jobs that could cost them their lives? Did they just wake up one morning and think, "I'd die for that chance?"

Whenever it happened, whenever they went to begin training for the jobs dedicated to saving lives, or defending a nation, that is exactly what they decided was worth it.

Now, all of us can understand when what they try to save us from, changes everything for us. So why can't we understand what all the times they do it, does to them?

How oblivious are we? How self-centered are we when we ignore what those jobs are doing to them? We get PTSD from one traumatic event. They get PTSD from far too many of them. Then they have this twisted thought that they were supposed to be better, stronger, and beyond reach of the residual demon of destruction.

More to the point is, how oblivious are the leaders of the men and women suffering, that they do not see their jobs cause more deaths than doing the job itself?

More in the military die as a result of suicide than die doing their jobs.

More die in the National Guard and Reserves to suicide than die doing their jobs.

More Police Officers dies to suicide than dies doing their jobs.

More Firefighters die to suicide than die doing their jobs.

According to the CDC, suicides in America have continued to increase. While some want to suggest that since it has happened to everyone else, then, it is just the way things are. As pathetic as that thought is, what they do not acknowledge is fueling the loss of lives.

These men and women decided that saving lives was worth dying for...but their own life was not worth fighting for anymore.

Why? Who gave them that impression? Who allowed the thought to penetrate their brains that they were supposed to just suffer silently instead of turning to all the others they served with to help save their own lives?

Would they do whatever they could to save one of their own?

The pain is running silent, angry and deep. It is time to look in their eyes and tell them that it is time to #BreakTheSilence and #TakeBackYourLife because this time, the life needing saving is yours!

Barry Manilow - Read 'em And Weep

Lyrics

I've been tryin for hour just to think of what exactly to say

I thought I leave you with a letter or a fiery speech

Like when an actor makes an exit at the end of a play

And I've been dying for hours trying to fill up all the holes with some sense

I like to know why you gave up and threw it away

I like to give you all the reasons and what everything meant

Well, I can tell you goodbye or maybe see you around

With just a touch of sarcastic thanks

We started out with a bang

And at the top of the world

Now the guns are exhausted

And the bullets are blanks

And everything's blank

If I could only find the words

Then I would write it all down

If I could only find the voice

I would speak

Oh its there in my eyes

Oh can't you see me tonight

Come on and look at me

And read 'em and weep

If I could only find the words

Then I would write it all down

If I could only find the voice

I would speak

Oh its there in my eyes

Oh can't you see me tonight

Come on and look at me

And read 'em and weep

I've been whispering softly

Trying to build a cry up to a scream

We let the past slip away

And put the future on hold

Now the present is nothing but a hollowed out dream

And I've been dreaming forever

Hoping something would eventually come

I saw your eyes in the dark

I felt your kiss on my lips

I traced your body in the air

'Til the bodies were numb

Well, I could tell you goodbye

Or maybe see you around

With just a touch of a sarcastic thanks

But now the rooms are all empty

The candles are dark

The guns are exhausted

And the bullets are blank

And everything is blank

Oh it's there in my eyes

And coming straight from my heart

It's running silent and angry and deep

Oh it's there in my eyes

And it's all I can say

Come on and look at me

And read 'em and weep

Songwriters: Jim Steinman

Read 'Em and Weep lyrics © Carlin America Inc