Veteran asked family to forgive him, before he pulled the trigger

Please find a way to forgive me!

The Greenville News
Kirk Brown,  Published 
Oct. 10, 2018

JARED JOHNS, A 24-YEAR-OLD ARMY VETERAN WHO SERVED IN AFGHANISTAN, KILLED HIMSELF ON SEPT. 11, THE ANNIVERSARY OF THE DAY THAT CALLED HIM TO SERVE. 

Then Jared placed a 9mm handgun under his chin and pulled the trigger.

His suicide on Sept. 11 came 17 years after the terrorist attacks in New York City, Washington and Pennsylvania that convinced a young boy to grow up to be a soldier.

In the last hour of his life, Jared Johns left a note on the dry-erase board in the Greenville apartment he shared with his twin brother. “I’m sorry. I messed up," he wrote. "This isn’t what I wanted." After retreating to his room and locking the door, the 24-year-old Army veteran who served in Afghanistan recorded a video on his cellphone. 

"I can't do it anymore," he said tearfully as he sat on his bed. The video included a message for his 2½-year-old son, Liam, and 18-month-old son, Jaxson. "I hate that I'm not going to get to see you grow up, but it's better this way, I promise," Jared said. He apologized to his parents. "Just please find a way to forgive me," he said.
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