Broken promises and forgiveness

When I asked for help from my friends and readers, most ignored it. Some gave right away and to them, it didn't matter how much you gave because your help offered me more emotionally than anything else.

I have been struggling with being able to forgive those who told me they would donate and didn't.

This morning as I awoke with a stack of bills to pay and no way to pay them, suddenly I was able to forgive people for breaking their promises to me. They have their reasons but it is not up to me to judge them. It is up to me to judge myself alone.

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't find the right words to use to gain support for what I do from the people that know me best and that has to be my fault. I am not able to get through to people what I do only costs about $2,000 a month when I have to travel the most and that money comes out of our personal funds. We are not rich and cannot afford to support this work on our own.

I applied for an extension to start repaying my student loans and still waiting to hear if they will allow it or not.

Some say I should ask the people I help for donations but when you are talking about people suffering even more than I am, that is not possible especially when they are coming to me for emotional help.

While I am good enough to heal some broken hearts and save some lives, I am just not good enough to get people to care enough to help me. So forgive me for asking you to help me so much. I know it is a pain but I was not willing to give up on you without a fight.