PTSD is scary, confusing — but most of all, treatable
Mar 2, 2011 2:10AM
It was late, maybe 3 a.m. I was sitting in my roommate’s parked Chevy Cavalier, alone, panicked, hoping nobody could see me — hoping I wasn’t really there.
The full story is long, much like that night was. I was at a house party in November 2003, my senior year of college — something my sorority sisters and I did almost every weekend. A girlfriend and I were about to leave when we heard a few popping sounds, much like firecrackers, from just outside the front door. The next thing I knew, one friend ran inside, yelling for someone to call 911.
Our friends hosting the party were trying to kick out a group of teenaged crashers. I’ve been told one of these strangers unexpectedly pulled a gun out of his pants, fired randomly, and ran. One of the bullets hit a friend of the party host square in the chest. He died a few minutes later.
I will never forget what it felt like, sitting in my roommate’s car as we waited for police, staring at the body sprawled on the lawn. Silent. Unmoving. Dead. “I was just dancing next to him an hour ago,” I thought, “and now he’s dead.” I’ve always lived by the mantra that “life is short,” but seeing the body of one of my peers at the age of 21 was the kind of wake-up call I never expected to experience.
Fast-forward four years later, when I was 25. I was driving my relatively new Honda Civic, on my way to a family gathering at about 9 a.m. in Chicago. I’m still not clear on exactly what happened, but I’ve been told that I went through a red stoplight that I didn’t see and crashed into the side of a gold BMW that seemed to come out of nowhere. In my confusion, I veered to the right and slammed into a curb. My airbag deployed while my hand was still on the horn.
I always compare that moment to the cartoons: When one of the characters is bonked on the head, they have little gold stars floating around them. That’s exactly what that moment felt like. When I came to, probably only a few seconds later, I didn’t feel right. I looked down, saw blood from a fingernail that had broken off, and then saw my right forearm. It was shaped like an S, and my hand was almost flattened against my inner forearm. The airbag had whipped my hand around and shattered the outer portion of my wrist.
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